Dealing with the reality

Since the visa interview two weeks ago, it's been a emotional roller coaster. I am having to deal with the reality that I have to build my life from scratch here in Tokyo, literally while I'm dealing with all kinds of emotions. Sometimes I can't hold it back, and I let go and cried. I feel extremely lonely at times, but feel blessed also. It's been like that for the last two weeks.

While I'm still deal with unstable emotions, I'm taking one step at a time.

Yesterday, I went out looking for an apartment of my own. I haven't lived myself for 7 or 8 years, so I was a bit nervous. After visiting few places, I pretty much decided on one apartment that has a room for a bed and TV, and that's pretty much it.

I knew I couldn't expect to live in a big place, but this is very humbling, and that's ok. I needed to find an apartment in order to build something here, and that's my foundation. I'm a bit nervous, but at the same time, excited with the new beginning, well, sort of...