Unexpected...

After settling in with my new apartment, I thought I would be happy to have a complete freedom, not having anyone telling me what to do.

Unexpectedly, I was struck with extreme loneliness and awareness that I am living in Tokyo, not Seattle. All of a sudden, the apartment felt like a jail, and I didn't know how to deal with the overwhelming realization that I'm alone.

That affected my work, and my motivation was really low. I shut off many things for a while... I do that from time to time, but I know it's really not good. I was battling with the pressure that I must get over this soon, or else, I wouldn't have my job, or anyone to confide when I need to...

I'm slowly getting back on track, and my apartment is starting to look like an place to live again. I just need to clean it... I can't believe how quickly it gets dirty. Thankfully, I don't have much stuff, plus the space is so small, so cleaning is very easy! That's one good thing about living in a small place.